Self Vs Sacrifice

I feel the greatest love we can offer one another is that which comes from a selfless place, when we want so much for someone that we give of ourselves, even if it is at a personal sacrifice. Obviously, the greatest demonstration of love was done in such a fashion. There is something so beautiful about a love that is given without condition or stipulations or pre-requisites. A love like this is authentic and trust-worthy and so very rare. I want nothing more than to love in this way. But some days our humanity makes it so hard.

My boyfriend left a week ago to spend the month doing mission work in Juarez, Mexico . And I absolutely love the fact that he is a man that loves God and loves people so much that he gives a month each summer to serve this community. He has an amazing heart and it is his tenderness and compassion that made me fall in love with him from the moment I met him and causes me to love him a bit more every day.

And so today I am struggling with loving selflessly, simply because I woke up sad. I know that seems so trivial...and it really is so trivial. I felt guilty for missing him so much but I do. Of course, if given the choice of having him close or freeing him to go, I would want him to go without any hesitation. But with that being said, it doesn't mean that some days I don't just want him close because life without him is just lesser. But learning to love means learning to sacrifice.

As he spends the month giving of himself, I want nothing more than to do the same: to love him enough to support him as he loves that community and to love that community enough to give them what I love most: him.